I know it wouldn't be right to feel this way but then again, I won't and I can't deny the fact that I do think of you a lot as well. It's just so hard to ignore meeting someone like you. I have never met anybody like you. It can be unfair but it's life and it's difficult to talk about.
I'm sure nothing will change though. Even if it would be tough to stop feeling this way. It's hard to think about it. it's tough to deal with it. The fact is it would be impossible for us to be together. It's not hopeless, it's just that there is no certainty or assurance that it would happen but despite all that, it still feels like it will happen and that it will come true. Why is that? I don't want to be this way. It's like I'm lying to myself and to everyone else but why do I keep on falling, falling even more for you? I can't seem to contain myself, thoughts running wild in my head. Whoever thought I would know you? Whoever knew it was possible? Nobody ever expected this. It wasn't part of our desire. Then again, why am I happy? Why am I thinking that everything will be alright? I guess in the end I am contented even if i know this might be wrong.
Why am I having sleepless nights? Do I have to go crazy thinking of things deeply or do I just have to be practical? I have so many questions but I don't know how to answer them.
But okay, just forget those random words. I'm sorry for thinking this way. Don't take it personally. It's true that some people are meant to fall in love with each other... But not meant to be together, right?! Same with me here.
The thing is, I should accept all the changed that happens in my life no matter how bad or worse things get in the end. Yea, it's nice to have someone as good as you in my life, dick.. Thanks for being a great one! :)
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