Addiction

I've been in love, it's like a narcotic. At first, it brings the euphoria of a complete surrender. The next day you want more. You are not addicted yet, but you like the sensation, and you think you can still control things. You think about the person you love for two minutes then forget them for three hours. But then you get used to that person, and you begin to completely dependent on them. Now you think about him for three hours and forget him for two minutes. If he's not there, you like an addict who can't get a fix. And just as addicts steal and humiliate themselves to get what they need, you are willing to do anything for love.

- Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I sat and Wept.



p.s.

Well, that's true though.. Even I think it seems so ridiculous.

I'm Sorry

sometimes, I get jealous thinking someone else could make you happier than I could do.
but I guess it is just my insecurities acting up.
because I know I am not the pretiest, smartest, and most fun and exciting.
but I do know that no matter how hard and long you look, you'll never find somebody that loves you like I do.

Okay, Let's Smile !

Hai guys, here I am trying to be cool again, trying to produce smile as much as I could. But cannot if you ask me to laugh, that seems little bit hard to do right now :)

Why do I want to force myself to smile?

Because.. Studies and Science prove that when you smile, whether you feel happy or not, your mood will be altered. I didn't say laugh even when there's nothing funny there, but smile is a TOTALLY different situation. Laughing is difficult. Smiling is easy. Here I want to explain to you briefly the difference between smile and laugh.

Smile Vs Laugh.

Smile : You can smile while you're sad, you can smile while you're crying, you can actually smile when you are looking at a picture or listening to a song.  A photo can make us smile, a smile can make us smile.

Laugh : A movie can make you laugh, your friends can make you laugh, a joke can make you laugh but you cannot laugh when you’re down. All you need is a transition between being sad and happy and that is SMILING. :)

Believe it or not, it works on me. Smilling can make my life more meaningful and easier to live. Though it's hard to do at the first time if you are in  not-really-good condition I know, but smilling, at least, can make your soul feels peaceful.

*sigh

Tuhanku Yang Maha Penyayang,

Kini aku mengerti,

aku menjadi jiwa yang damai,

bukan karena aku berhasil memadamkan 

semua kontradiksi di dalam diri aku,

tetapi karena aku justru 

menggunakan kegelisahan hatiku 

untuk menjadikanku lebih sabar 

dan lebih mengerti maksud di balik kesulitan 

yang kau hamparkan sebagai jalan baik dan naikku. 

Tuhanku, 

Aku mohon Engkau mendamaikan aku,

atau menggelisahkanku dengan kesulitan 

yang memuliakanku. 

Bangunkanlah aku sebagai jiwa yang damai, 

yang lebih siap bagi pemuliaan dariMu.

Aamiin

This is what I'm doing

while I'm waiting for Bayu's slides.. (why are you so long, bayuuuuuuuu!) It's toooooooo night! Fiuuhh

Larungan Rindu Karenanya...

Aku akan bergantung pada rindu yang diterpa angin…

Dan terbakar api…

Dan terguyur hujan…

Dan larung meninggalkanku…

Hingga ia menatapku dari atas langit bertabur bintang…

Yang sulit terpana hati…

Yang tak lagi utuh…

Karenanya…

Terima Kasih Untuk Langit Penuh Bintang Malam Ini.

WHAT IF

We say we love each other. We've known each other. We've given each other advice. We text about everyday. We've liked each other, just at separate times. We can't get over the feeling we have even we've tried our whole brain off to think about make the feeling fades away.

What if everything just real between us? 

What if I confess? Would we be still ending up the same?

What if everything works out right and we end up together? 

What if we were "that" couple... the one that everyone has been waiting for?

What if...





# while listening What If - Colbie Caillat : ".... What if we were made for each other. Born to become best friends and lovers. I want to stay right here in this moment with you over and over and over again. What if this could be a real love A love, a love, yeah.. I don't know what to think. Is this real or just a dream. In my heart is where you'll be. I'll keep waiting till we meet..."

Nokturno

Kubiarkan cahaya bintang memilikimu. 

Kubiarkan angin yang pucat dan tak habis-habisnya gelisah. 

Tiba-tiba menjelma isyarat, merebutmu. 

Entah kapan kau bisa kutangkap…

Nokturno - Sapardi Djoko Damono




p.s.
Mencintai adalah mengagumi dengan hati. Mengagumi adalah mencintai dengan pikiran.

Posted via Blogaway

FREEDOM

Things are going to bring me down. But I'm going to keep on going. I'm going to reach as far as I can, for everything I've never wanted. And I'm not giving up. 

Cause that's what you have to do when your dreams are more important than your fears. 

You go out there and ignore the odds. You focus on one thing; that your dreams come true. 

Get your life, make it worth. 

Feel your own freedom and spirit...

Dear Dickhead, I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride...

(photo from flickr)

Hatiku Selembar Daun

Hatiku selembar daun melayang jatuh di rumput;

nanti dulu, 

biarkan aku sejenak terbaring di sini;

ada yang masih ingin kupandang, 

yang selama ini senantiasa luput;

sesaat adalah abadi sebelum kausapu tamanmu setiap pagi.

Hatiku Selembar Daun - Sapardi Djoko Damono

p.s.

I have an idea: let's sacrifice our memories for a great thing called new us. : )

A letter to you

Dalam hidup tak ada yang kebetulan. Segala sesuatu dibuat untuk sebuah tujuan. Dari banci diperempatan. Orang gila dipinggir jalan. Wanita kesepian di gang-gang. Tak ada yang lebih tinggi maupun lebih rendah. Hebatnya, Allah tak punya pilihan untuk menyayangi yang mana dan mana yang tidak. Ia menyayangi semua. Masalahnya, saya terkadang melebihi Allah.  Saya terlalu pemilih. Memilih siapa yang mau saya sayangi dan tidak. Sampai sini saya berpikir, yang Allah siapa, yang manusianya siapa. Malam ini kalau berdoa, minta hati yang lebar lagi untuk menyayangi. Selebar apa? Silakan pilih saja. Saya sih mau selebar globe atau bola dunia. Eh, tunggu! Globe tidak lebar, ia bulat. Oke kalau begitu sayangku ke kamu sebulat globe. Karena bagi saya, kamu adalah dunia saya.

Selamat tidur :)