Romansa Dua Wanita

now : on my bed lying down myself.

after the class was over at 14.35pm. lebih cepet karena puasa. gue nunggu jemputan. karena mgkn fak. lain masih pada libur jadinya keliatan lebih sepi kali ya jam sgitu. there were 2 people, had the same purpose, sit together di bangku depan jurusan.

an half hour passed by without any single conversation came out from their lips.

awkward moment.

gue : hmm.. tumben mendung ya Tha. kok diem aja sih daritadi. mentang puasa.. hehe

etha : iya nih. diem karna lagi menikmati teduhny hari ini. coba kalo gini tiap hari. demen juga gue kuliah pas puasa gini. tapi jangan deh ntr jemuran kaga ada yang kering lagi. hahaha

gue :(nyesel udah nanya. jawabannya panjang amett hihi). HE HE iya yaa tha.. ^^"




krik krik krik.  terdiam lagi for a couple of minutes.




etha : apa kabarnya lo sama si itu?

gue : ha? itu siape?

etha : si itu si diaaa..

gue : ohh. baik2 aja. hehe

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gue : la, mo nanya deh. mnurut lo gimana ya klo misalnya nih ya kita pacaran sm orang. kita mati2an nih bertahan. padahal kan kita tau mgkn pd akhirnya suatu saat nanti ini tuh ga bakal bisa. ngebuang buang waktu ga sih?

(selang beberapa detik terdiam)

etha : klo lo mau tau jawabannya ya lo tanya aja sendiri sama diri lo nih. . "Why do you LIVE when you know you'll DIE someday. ?" kenapa coba? menurut lo kaya gitu buang2 waktu ga?

gue : (bingung mo jawab apa).hmmm..idk exactly. I just.. dont choose who I will fall in love with. my heart does that, everything happens for a reason, doesn't it?!

etha : we live so we have something WORTH dying for, so we'll either be laid too rest knowing we did what we had too or to be put out of the misery of whatever happened during your time. we live so we know we had something worth dying for! because all the things have a beginning and an end, in acknowledging that, you also understand that EVERYTHING has a purpose. EVERYTHING happens for a reason, don't you?! you may not call him, you may not see him, touch, hug nor kiss.. but when you remember WHY you cannot do these things any longer.. you know what mistake not to make to deprive you of these sensations again.. klopun suatu saat elo berdua ga bisa jalan lagi, ya udah anggep aja itu sebuah experience buat didepannya. bcos Failed Relationships are meant to educate and strengthen, not degrade and destroy.. jadi lo tenang aja. serahin lah semuanya sama Tuhan lo. Dia pasti bakal ngasih yang terbaik kok. (senyum)

gue : (cengo') wow. well said. hard to answer though. cuz actually I dont ask for these things they just happen so the choice are either  we deal with it or end it. is it true?

etha : haah. itu bener. emang susah kan. itu pilihan lo. lo yg mulai buat jatoh. dan jatoh itu ya antara lo jatohnya ditempat yang asik apa engga. semua ada pilihannya kok. ada yang asik, ada yg ga asik. makanya hati2 dari awal. klo gue jadi elo ya ga ada sih istilah wasting time. kalo kata lo everything happens for a reason, then we are learning about love right now. so dont stop learning until you have mastered all of these or at least.. until God asked you to stop.

gue :  tapi gue kan susah La. lo aja ga suka gue deket sama tu bocah. baru elo yg gue tau. gmn yg lain? pacar gw especially..

etha : Susah sih perihal pacar. tapi yaudah. let they speak whatever they have in their mind. everyone's entitled to their opinion, right?! if you are trapped between your feeling and what other people think is right, always go whatever makes you happy..

gue : unless you want everybody happy except you? hahah

etha : ah you got the point! selfish?  this is your life.if you know that your relationship will end someday, ya just have fun till it ends if it ends that just means there is something better out there for you. gampang kan?! life is easy if you think it's easy.

gue : hahaha silly!

etha : then keep it simple silly. HAHAHA
lo bisa taula mn yg bagus buat diri lo. buat mereka. klopun elo nanti milih buat bahagia atau tersakiti. yaaaa.. that is your choice to be that way.
udah ye gue balik duluan. kga ada yg ngejemput nih. mau ke bookstore dulu. selamat berpikir. selamat berbuka.

gue : haha. go ahead. thank you ye ntee. (big smile)

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lagi-lagi tentang pilihan. lagi-lagi susah. mungkin pada inti dari semua ini adalah gue cuma takut kehilangan seseorang.  ahhh. later when something bad happens, seems like you just have 3 choices :

you can either let it define you. let it destroy you. or you can let it strengthen you. that's all! 




jadiiii. yok mari kita memilih jalan hidup kita! 
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