Wednesday, November 28, 2018

AKU

"Salah satu hal tersulit dalam duniaku
adalah untuk mengerti inginnya hatiku.

Seorang aku saja bahkan kadang tak
sanggup memahami apa yang sedang
hatiku pinta.

Oleh karena itu tak banyak orang yang
betah berlama lama bersamaku.
Ntah karena alasan lelah atau bosan.
Mungkin bisa saja karena memang
sudah tak sanggup belajar
memahamiku.

Maka tak semua orang kuizinkan
masuk dalam duniaku karena mereka
takkan paham apa yang benakku
ciptakan.

Terlalu rumit untuk menjelaskan
semua angan dan khayal yang aku
ciptakan sendiri.
Tidak tertebak oleh logika
Tingkah laku pun kadang tak cukup
mampu menjelaskan.
Tidak ada yang bisa mengerti duniaku.


Tidak ada yang mampu mengertiku.


Tak ada yang paham betapa rumitnya
pikiran dan banyaknya pintaku.
Tetap mau menghabiskan waktunya
bersamaku.
Dibalik itu semua, tentu saja tetap ada
orang orang yang tetap mau belajar
mengerti diriku.

Tetap bersabar dengan segala tingkah
yang aku buat.
Tetap mau menghabiskan waktunya
bersamaku.

Aku berterima kasih.
Kepada siapa saja yang mau belajar
memahamiku.
Dan sanggup bersabar menghadapi
seorang aku.
Serta tak pernah memilih pergi untuk
meninggalkanku.
Jika seseorang memang sanggup
untuk mengerti diriku.

Tetapi sepertinya tidak perlu
mengerti.
Cukup menghargai bahwa pikiran ku
berbeda.

Dia akan mendapatkan sesuatu yang
lebih.

Bukan perbedaan yang cukup berarti
dia hanya akan mendapatkan sesuatu
yang tak akan ku berikan kepada
siapapun yang memilih pergi
meninggalkanku.

Jika kau bertanya "Apa itu?"

Sebuah kepercayaan penuh, kasih
sayang, serta pengorbanan yang akan
aku berikan.

Tak hanya itu... separuh hidupku pun
rela aku berikan."

Friday, August 31, 2018

A Fate

"We might be sharing a bed and the utility bills with a partner - but the love there once was between us may have gone forever. Neither of us is leaving, but we realize that perhaps for the rest of our lives, we're gonna to have to still be exist without the feeling that our partner is delighted or fascinated by us. Within a hopeless romantic minded culture, it can look rather pitiful to stay together for convenience once passion has gone, but little did we know when love  has died, we're not particularly missing out, we have not particularly failed;  we're simply meeting an ordinary yet rarely described, fate."

"Oh, I'm sad listening to it..."

"Kalo sedih  berarti karena hopeless romantic culture minded *senyum*. there might be many good strong reasons to stay together even when our heart quietly broken. Maybe because our finance is intertwined, kids, friends in common, or we've established ways of living together that might be convenient to us. It's not strange or shameful. It's extremely ordinary and even rather noble. Because if we left, and found someone else, we'd probably end up in the same position a few year later - because in some ways, love almost always dies. Romantic intensity isn't a description of a life for living together in the long term."

Friday, July 6, 2018

Don't Be Shallow

What is the point of a diamond dangling on a heartless chest?
Or on a deaf ear?
Or on an ungenerous hand?

What is the point of loving people for the way that your eyes see them, not for who they really are on the inside?

Don’t be the one who gets fooled by an egg dipped in gold.  At the first obstacle, its beautiful covering shatters, and all that is left is nothing that will please your eyes.

Use your eyes to see into people's hearts, not the way that they make their hearts appear. 

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

All I want

All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die a happy girl I'm sure

When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side

But if you loved me
Why'd you leave me?
Take my body
Take my body
All I want is
And all I need is
To find somebody
I'll find somebody like you
Like you

So you brought out the best of me
A part of me I've never seen
You took my soul and wiped it clean
Our love was made for movie scenes

But if you loved me
Why'd you leave me?