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#justlikeanotherunimportantstorytotellyou

Every single road has the end. and so does like us.
Yup, I've never thought that it'd be such a short short story. It feels like discontinued something that has just started and still running fast. Just like that, it's over. Tormented and torn apart. ironic.
do not ever blame on this condition. Blame me...


But have you ever holding back tears until you want to throw up because you just can't stand it anymore? Like everyday when you pray?

In fact I don't really know what to write now. I'm in pain, but there's no point of telling anyone about it because none of them would understand. You might not believe this, but sometimes, untold feelings could led you to suffocation. Well, it works like that on my world. Truths keep choking me hard and I can do nothing besides holding back the pain, as if nothing wrong. Holding up the tears falling down on my cheeks.

Because I want you to be happy. It will be different if I stay.
I will be the only person who's going to hold you back from pursuing your dreams.
I will be the only person hurting you with my endless selfishness-lying and annoying 'sok manja'.
I will be the only person that must be blamed for this feeling.
I will be the only person that you're going to hate in the end, so why wasting time?
YOU DESERVE MORE THAN I HAVE EVER GIVEN/DONE TO YOU!

Tom: What happened? Why - why didn't they work out?

Summer: What always happens. Life.

I think life got us.

In the end, I could only sum up this with 3 simple word. I. (still) Don't. Know.
Okay, so that's 4.
I still don't really know whether I should be sad or pleased about this I still don't really know. I still have you, I know but yup in the different 'occasion' and a very 'limited' movement. Sometimes, things are better left unsaid. At least on this case, it is.

Tom: I love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it.

It's you.






''...Tuhan bila waktu dapat ku putar kembali. Sekali lagi untuk mencintanya. Namun bila waktu ku telah habis dengannya. Biarkan cinta ini, biarkan cinta ini hidup untuk sekali ini saja…''

Rasa = Cinta

Aku Tidak Mencintaimu Dua Kali



Sungguh,

Soal rasa aku tidak pernah bercanda.

Jika pernah aku katakan aku memiliki rasa ini untukmu,

itu artinya selamanya.

Tidak perlu di ulangi lagi.
Aku tidak akan mengingatkan mu kembali.

Mengertilah,

Rasa itu tidak butuh kata, atau pengakuan mereka.

Ia akan tetap ada sampai kita tiada.

Kecuali...

Jika kau pernah memintaku berhenti, 'mungkin' rasa itu telah pergi.

Atau entahlah..

Kita perlu memastikannya kembali.